I feel kinda stupid..

I was so hoping I was pregnant this month. I'd have days where I was like "yep. Totally pregnant" and some days where I was like "Ehh. I don't know" But I was REALLY hoping. And had so much positivity towards this month. And I started spotting today and I just got depressed and started balling. My flow isn't heavy yet, but I already know I'm out so I legit broke down. Is that stupid of me? I'm posting anonymously because, I feel like a cry baby. I'm just hurt. Is this normal? Or anyone else just get heart broken after trying for a while?