I never told the drs I had it when it was happening because I was so in my head thinking they were going to hurt him somehow by recommending medication and in turn making me quit nursing to take something. Also at the time I was so bad but it all seemed normal to me. I even thought about if I were to die he would probably have a better life with people that knew how to parent better. Now that seems crazy to me again that I got this whole mothering thing down... but that feeling idk how to describe is coming back. The anxiety and worrying about everything😭

I get so nervous when mil drives him I listen to police scanner for accidents... is this just parenting now